If you’re reading this right now, I hope that you’re okay. If you’re not okay, and are having suicidal thoughts and feeling hopeless, know that it’s okay to not be okay, and that you are not alone.
I don’t know if you have any triggers, or how your current mental state is, so I’ll attempt to be straight to the point and as positive as possible.
I’ve had suicidal thoughts and felt hopeless before, I’ve attempted to end my life. I understand how difficult it is to stay strong. But you have to keep on fighting and believe that it will get better, because it will. Right now you have more pain than you can handle. But you can overcome it. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Your suffering really will pass.
I’ve reflected on the times when I’ve been suicidal and now realise, like many other individuals, that I didn’t really want to die. I didn’t not want to live anymore. I just didn’t want to live like this anymore.
Focus on the “like this”. That’s the indirect glimmer of hope in hopelessness. It is an opening for you to make some changes to your life, positive changes that’ll be long-term and have a positive impact on your well-being and stop the suicidal thoughts and hopelessness from resurfacing. I know that it will be challenging and can take a lot of time and energy, but it is possible to get through this. You will get through this. There is hope.
In the meantime, there are 6 things you can do to help yourself immediately:
1. Talk to someone.
Talk to a friend, family member, your GP, therapist or a suicide helpline. Or if someone is willing to stay with you while you’re not okay, ask them to.
2. Distract yourself.
Play a game, watch a film or T.V. series, draw, colour etc. Do something to distract yourself from unpleasant thoughts and feelings.
3. Remind yourself why you’ve held on for so long.
Write down or say out loud the reasons why you’ve held on for so long. Reminding yourself of these reasons will give you strength.
4. Avoid alcohol and drugs.
Alcohol and drugs can worsen your mental state, so it’s in your best interests to avoid them.
5. Make your environment safe.
Remove all sharp objects and medication from your current environment. If you need any of your medication, leave it with someone who is willing to give it to you when needed.
6. Practice self-care.
Small and simple acts of self-care (such as washing your face with warm water after crying, brushing your hair from the ends to the roots, making yourself some food you enjoy etc.) can help lift your mood.
If you are currently in crisis and/or need to talk to someone, please have a look at the list of services and resources below and contact one to receive help.
Suicide & Mental Health Services & Resources:
Phone number: 116123
Text (SMS) number: 07725909090
National suicide prevention lifeline (US)
Phone number: 18002738255
Crisis Text Line (US)*
Text (SMS) number: 741741
*may be international in the future.
Suicide Stop (INTERNATIONAL)
7 Cups (Online chat)*
Also available as an app.
*online chat (live) with trained listeners, therapists and counselors.